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to realise that there is no actual weak spot

2008-07-15T12:13:43Z

This is incredible.

Here I am on a Tuesday morning, awake due to garbage and recycling.
Four floors below they're picking it up and my window is open allowing me to hear it all and not sleep through it.

Today is ordinarily my day off. I've swapped it to an evening shift. Tomorrow, instead, and the day after are my days off. This week.

I'm not always very smart when I play cards. That's not anything new. I need to remind myself that I can fold.

I have a small list of things I'm going to do today before work. Maybe I will succeed at those things.
One of those things is a recce mission.

I am very tired.
I've been more irritable with people whose company I enjoy than with people who deserve irritability.

I wonder if it's just fatigue or if it's something else.
Some undercurrent of not yet having seen all the movies I want to.

you'd think the rain would break the humidity

2008-07-09T14:53:21Z

At some point I'm going to find the time to just sit.
Sit and do nothing.

Despite the rain the humidity is brutal. I'm sweating.
And I'm rambling aloud to myself like a crazy person.

I swung by the PostSecret page today to read last week's secrets.
I think I will stop reading them for a while.

We've stopped with the revelations of self-love secrets for the last few weeks, but I'm tired of the meta-secrets. The "secrets" about the PostSecret site. The project, as it appears to me now, is just... pathetic. The PostSecret idea was once really interesting, and could have developed into an actually interesting ongoing project. It's turned into a legion of people all confessing their self-loathing and self-love, all sharing the same secret, in the same pseudoclever bullshit way.

Which, unless I miss my guess, is what livejournal is for.

Wherever you are I'm sure one of the two of us is thinking of one of the two of us.

nothing to fear down below

2008-06-20T12:45:41Z

Okay.

This is the first morning in about two years that I've been awake in a new location that wasn't immediately temporary. I awoke at five-ish in the morning, only I wasn't sure what time it was because the powerbar has been odd and it turned off my alarm clock. Fortunately, I start a string of evenings at work tonight.

Just a few utility things to pick up today as well as some things from the old homestead (maybe). I keep trying to remember what it was I was going to track down, but it never pops into my mind. Probably printer paper... the new printer is super awesome!

Oh yes. I didn't bring any sweaters and this morning was kind of cool... temperature-wise.

I will probably nap later today before work. Until then I've a few things to go do.
I also plan on making good the re-vamp of the site layout I have in mind... but we'll see if that (as with everything else) ever comes to fruition.

Three separate friends are writing extended narratives. It reminds me that I am not.

a swimming pool with no bottom

2008-06-15T12:44:31Z

Every morning when I wake up and don't enjoy a cup of rather hot caffeine I find that the day drains me. So enough of this "cutting back" nonsense. I'm having my caffeine and I'm going to damn well enjoy it. Dark water with the essence of bergamot or the life-giving ground bean water.

The move of big objects (names the bed and the dresser and the chair, I hope) will happen either Tuesday or Wednesday. My room in the apartment may not be big enough, but I've ordered some storage from a relatively inexpensive but decent quality swedish furnishings store. I called something "storage solutions" and almost got myself stabbed, though I used the phrase ironically. If I can pile things on top of each other, I'll be good. I won't be wasting bookshelf space on digital versatile discs or compact discs - they're getting their own storage solution. I may need to get another desk yet, but I'll see.

Must remember the perspective.

Moonshine is up and running. I played a bit of COD4 this morning when I awoke and it had no graphical hiccoughs. What a relief! I'm interested to see how this puppy handles things and also how the story plays out in COD4. The graphics card came with a copy of COH, which saves me the twenty bucks it would cost to get the game on Steam, though I think if I were to shell out thirty bucks I could get the game plus the expansion in a brick-and-mortar. Of course, then I'd be stuck with a box for which I'd have no use. (I've a drawer full of boxes for which I've no use any longer, I might drop those suckers off at ebgames and see what they'll give me for them.) I plan on playing the simple game before I try the expansion, as time allows. Playing WOW with the settings cranked is a very different experience - one by which I am pleased.

I also listened to the KCRW morning becomes eclectic podcast featuring The Submarines. Their song "Swimming Pool" (with which they opened the show) made me download their latest album HONEYSUCKLE WEEKS. I am pleased. This music is pleasant and keen and makes me feel less anxious within my own whatever.

Work is an adjustment. I still feel like I'm the revolving door at the entrance of the country through which people pass unhindered. Occasionally I get asked to do a french series of questions, but I'm not officially bilingual and have difficulty forming the questions for which I need the answers or asking supplementary questions. But I'm getting there. I'd be keen to practice if there wasn't a legal liability to that scenario.

I'm such a nerd that the recent release of fourth edition D&D has made me want to play and or run a game. Of course, I enjoy running games and my old games languish as I get swamped by the other things in life (by which we seek to be swamped and by which we occasionally don't notice we'll be swamped). I don't own the books yet, but I will have them. It is inevitable.

I've been following the EURO 2008 championships, but my schedule means I can't watch them. Not unless I squander my days off in front of a television. So maybe I'll get to see the later rounds. We'll see.

In the mean time I'm getting things moving. Off to work!

the (only) ology worth pursuing

2008-03-10T16:05:18Z

What's up with martin? You might well ask yourself that question since he's been remarkably silent and largely missing in action. Or, since you know martin, you may describe him (while he's missing) as missing inaction.

time flies when you're whatever it is you are
Well. I'm very busy. I'm taking a full course load this term, which is unusual for me. Even when I was in my degree program(me) I never took a five-course term. It just isn't feasible with everything I want to be doing. Now, though, I haven't the luxury of six years to figure shit out. I've figured it out, now I am trying to get there.

Unfortunately, this has left little time for much else. Especially when my time (which I would otherwise devote to studies) has been subsumed by things like fencing (coaching and competing, stupid me) and traveling (nowhere exciting, merely from home to campus).

So I feel guilty all the time that I don't spend more time hanging out at the gaming store or gaming in general... which makes me less interested in the prospect of gaming, but there it is.

a site for sore eyes
Web design is tricky business... especially the half-arsed way I do it. Unfortunately it's time consuming. I have the basic layout set up in my mind, and now it's just a matter of setting up the templates and whatnot so that when I publish my site it goes well. But... that is a time-consuming process. As previously noted, I have next to no time.

Again, so it goes.

we together make a limb

2008-02-13T17:34:14Z

I don't think it's too much to say that "Red Right Ankle" off of The Decemberists' album Her Majesty is one of the nicest love songs in creation. You can hear it if you go to their site. Or click this link.

the site

I am in the process of setting up the new layout. I'm liking my idea so far but I have been sidetracked by my studies. For the past three or four weeks, actually. It's been pretty easy to put the priority on my studies (generally). Although there are a few glaring exceptions to that, generally it's been pretty easy. I just wish I didn't feel guilty about focusing on school. I'm glad the week is almost done.

But the site will/should have its layout sorted out by the end of the next week and then I can leave it alone for at least a week!

elsewhere

Stuck, as I am, in the library,
I miss you tremendously.
But that is the way of things.

Read a softer world. They update three times a week now. Which means you get three times the wonderful as we used to get back when I was a reader of such things.

If you have, keep doing.
If you haven't, try it some time.

where i'm going with this

2008-02-04T00:05:49Z

I'm hoping that before too long I'll be back into the swing of things with this. It's take a while to get everything set up the way I want it to be and even now I'm not close to that.

But before too long I'll be rambling away on the interweb without an audience but with far too many opinions regardless. I hope to set up more comprehensive and interesting page designs here, ones which nicely compartmentalise the sorts of things I intend to display here.

That way you'll only have to read what you want.

The crux of the site will be the usual main-page web-log. Or, as we used to call them, web pages. Or sites. Or just pages. I might even call it a blog. But that's neither here nor there.

Not yet it isn't.

For now I'm still tweaking with the layout and the look. Especially since what you're currently seeing is just a default template put there by the good folks who make MT4.

Welcome anew

2008-02-03T23:57:39Z

Hello friends.

Or visitors
At least.

This is just a plain HTML note
(God damn it!)
To let you know that the site's operational
Again.

While I get everything up
And running
(Again)
Why not check out
The live hotel recordings?

They're worth a listen
At least.